Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Breathe in Breathe out, Trust God!

My husband was let go from his job this morning. So here I am sitting with a 6 year old, 3 year old, newborn and we now currently have no income. Insert completely out of control freaking out mom here! My first stop was to walk next door to our church. There are times where you just have to acknowledge you are not in the frame of mind to make a good decision (which for me was walking into where he worked and telling them exactly what I thought of them!). Within a few minutes of talking with them, our pastor was able to recommend a place hiring, and Aaron is waiting to hear a time to set up an interview with them tomorrow. More importantly our pastor and his wife were able to remind me, I need to trust God. Our pastor looked at my 4 week old daughter sleeping in my arms and said, that is the kind of trust I need to have, just like she has in me. So, I am sitting here taking a step out of my emotions, my anger, and looking at my situation. I can be angry my husband doesn't have a job that caused us a crazy amount of stress, where he was working an insane amount of hours and he was never able to be home with his family, or I can see that this is a blessing. I can trust God because he will never leave or forsake me, and God is who I need to look to for our provision. We've gone through this before. I can tell you, it wasn't pretty when we did it last time. So here is my chance to do it right. I can worry and cry and scream, but it wont change anything. Or I can see that this is an opportunity to see how amazing and faithful God is to us all the time! I have an opportunity to show other people that I do not need to live in fear or worry because God is bigger than that. So that is going to be my choice. I find myself wanting to say, "it wont be easy but...." except I am not going to do that. I am just going to make the decision to step outside my go to response, and simply trust God. So here we are, trusting God and enjoying having my husband home right now!


6-13-12
How amazing is God! Aaron had his interview today. He feels it went really well. We will hear back in a day or two whether he got it or not! Even if he didn't get it. There is a job out there that will be great for him and that will work for our family. So the rest of today is for us to just hang out!